What a year! A move, new job, heartbreak, new friends, family, all the good shit! Def new experiences all around, living on my own, scary but soooooooo good now! Its the ultimate feelings of freedom. Too much indecision though, driving 30 minutes in the rain crying over Alice in wonderland, going insane, not enough artwork, or photos, not enough writing. Too much working! Seems like im always working which is crazy cause i do the regular 40 hours....sometimes 45...still. What else, miss my friends, love my family, family these people are crazy, mom gonna get better soon, i cant wait....i have no fingernails left. Auntie of the year, all these kids around me so innocent, they dont know how hard its going to get. Pre teen nephew got the growing pains, hes an independent thinker, we hang out. Much better with the books, once your out from the limelight and trust me, i am, you manage to say NO to a lot of pricey items, buy a new sheets instead, 400 tread count. All the bills are on time and Thank God! things didnt pan out with the boyfriend, but, spilled milk philosophy will have to apply, i really cant deal with the anxiety. but seriously i suck! i suck at relationships, i dont know whats that all about, im a hard pill to swallow i guess. i'll get it right one day, until then....so what now, school? yupe i'm back on my bully ish. very hype! im here long enough to be a resident so no out of state fees for me. And then...well... no "and then" thats all i got, dont plan too far ahead. dont rush the moment and dont, stop, believing!!.. streets lights, people!!! yes i miss nyc. but i'm already home so.....
to come very interesting stuff, me thinks.